listening to the remix version of "yaar bina chain kahaa re" at my friend's place,life should i say is good. all the uncertainty seems to be coming to an end. still i seek answers, will i ever get them!! it is quite possible that i have reached the age where having people around me does not take away the loneliness. i am sinking and nobody can see it, i really wanted to make my blog free of misery, hence have been avoiding, but i guess..failure is inevitable.
my mind is churning,thanks to all brain fibres i cannot weave into a coherent thought, m so lost. and what is worst is i do not even want to be found, for the very answers i am seeking, will i even like them.
my sheer arrogance surprises me, may be i expect too much from those around me, but i only want them to excel,i have to stop interfering,what i cannot control should not bother me. if only i loved a little less, or may if only my passion was reciprocated,,,too many ifs and buts...too much dissapointment....but thats all here...in the blogs, otherwise its all cool.
i am seldom so real anywhere else, my alterego is too dominant to allow my real self to surface, i just so wish to have my realism see daylight.
believer i am..still hope to be.
