today....last vipassana day

actually yesterday ie, for its 12.15 am now.....umm...lets ignore the 15 mins and its still today!

was the 11 th day of my 1st ever vipassana experience....the day i was released and have realized the actual depths of the term stone-buttedness.

9 days are really long. The 10th day....we TALK!! and even better if possible, are spoken to. What a feeling! I have actually passed 300 people every day without even smiling at most of them. I am compelled to use the term "most of them" as some were like me, who were meant to be of a little loose character and smiled and i was perhaps the most baggiest for i even whispered thrice(i think )with my room mate, and she was a complete sky bag for one night she hogged on CHIPS!!! She was my anchor to sanity.

But after completion of this whole "have yet to concoct an adjective for no existing ones can satiate me" experience, my still fragile and jittery mind is certain of a second, third, fourth and so on helpings coz BOSS! it works.

1stly,i have never laughed so much, absolute hysteria and without any material stimulus, its freaking fantabulous..2ndly, UMUL got engaged!!!!! 10 days back there wasn't even a guy in realm and she is ENGAGED!! Gods must be crazy. You want to bless, fine, but there HAS to be some limit. Giving me my tiara, my longing of last 18 months for mere span of 10 days of doing nothing! truly gods are crazy.

That was the 1st piece of news that reached me on day 10th, after the noble silence mandate was revoked. Then slowly and steadily we were ensnared. People I just noticed prior on were my best mates faster then i blinked. Day 10 ended at 2 AM, after relishing well preserved khakras and biscuits, sneaking past all the sevikas and gurujis, exploring all the possible kopchas which can house our ever expanding gang, amidst all the nocturnal creeps, and best of all with music & gossip. What a way to close the book!

My day 11, is ending here in this page, few highlights of this day.

From Igatputi to Vashi.

We boarded a train crazily crowded knowing fully well it'l stop at our required station "thane" only to know we were wrong and we ended up STANDING for 2 hours being pushed and stamped and abused only to alights at "Kalyan" during peak traffic hours. Obvious, had to board another train back to "thane" facing even better reception in an even fuller bogie if possible.

Thane to Vashi (my home town) ride was fortunately devoid of all adventures.

My mom.

She made chicken, prawns, paneer and kheer!! food is a mighty aphrodisiac. Moms are gods best friends, gods are crazy. i am so sorry mom i hurt you so often.

Dad. IN kOLKATA AND GOING CRAZY. He finally heard my voice. My voice is the sweetest.

My sermons. Suffice to say i stripped my memory naked.

Sonu. My sonu.

Umul's gift. Truly oblighed to all the staff of FOTOLITE (center one) who edited the pics,printed them, cropped them to fit the frame, packed the frame, gift wrapped it twice, all in 15 minutes and above all, tolerated my mania. bless all.

Umul's fiance. 9/10. the jeans yaar!! thats all.

Umul. My UMUL. umul GOT ENGAGED!!

Home again!! and GOD ARE YOU CRAZY!! AVINASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God you are sooo not sane. please i request you to now stop being so nice to me. i want to believe in misery. Avi was so so so so sweet. What timing!

Neha. i miss you. Piu, thanks for hearing me, GOd you rock. Goenkaji. thanks a ton.

to all, BHAVATU SABYA MANGALAM.

P.S. Please suggest synonyms for "crazy" and i mean the punctuations, esp. (!)

cant think of any title...

Finally someone read my blog, and that has led me to evolve a new found respect towards my own writing. Having endured the regular conundrums of my never ending academic life, I realize how habitual I am to the comforts, dare I call them, of being a student. It is no small matter of consequence that I have been a student for over 20 years now, might as well enjoy …endure…a bit more.

For, as I see the last day drawing ever so near, june 30th ie, the obvious jubilation is somehow marred by the inconceivable abyss that lies ahead.

I am going to be 23. I am no longer a vulnerable youth allowed of nonsensical redundancy. I ought to liable for my actions…..am I making any sense!!!!!

If this continues, I’ll scare away the away my only patron and again this blog page will be in the doldrums of solitude.

Well lets c what more can be added to fill the page….hmm….starting Wednesday, I’ll be observing “noble silence” as prescribed by Mr. Goenkaji for hopefully ten days. Though I am told by all who know me that if the only time I ever sprint in my whole unexercised life, it’ll be during this venture. I so wish I could whole heartedly disagree with them, but they are my true friends. My sole conviction and only solace is that vipassana , if fails to achieve everything it desires of me, will atleast take away substantial portion of my weight as a consolation prize.

Mundane and highly superficial outlook ought to be criticized!!

Resignation to inevitable evils is the duty of us all. (J. A.)