Selfish

The joy of writing surpasses all else..... My mind walks naked on a single sheet of paper....today i write about my new found liberty...somehow ....its such a bliss being independent....even the small small decisions that i have to take give me so much pleasure.....which phenyl to buy....what color mop....which brand of cooking oil.....i decide what i do...and i love what i do.....it goes without saying that we love our parents indefinitely.....but unfortunately they have a habit of clinging to us....of shackling us.....and i feel i have escaped those bonds......but its kinda mixed feelings you know.....some times these same bonds give a sense of extreme security as well....to know someone is there to guide you if you are lost.....some one who wont allow you to fall....

It's a challenge everyday....till now i am winning....the day i lose will be the day i seek my old home.... is it wrong for me to say i dont want that day to come??....i dont wanna lose..i done want some1 else's home as mine....

Not my dad's... nor brothers.....nor any other man's.....i want to build my own nest.......and knowing that i will not be allowed to...this abyss of uncertainty haunts me so....may be i wont be able to...but the latter is a thought i have not yet dared delve into.....i yet do not want to fail.....

i love u and all else....but have always realized one thing....the one person i love above all is myself....its a simple unblemished fact......

Selfish?......yes i am....and i choose to live this way....for i am happy.